Keep holding on When my brains tickin’ like a bomb Guess the black thoughts have come again to get me Sweet bitter words Unlike nothing I have heard Sing along Mockingbird You don’t affect me My dear Lucille. I still find it to be funny how you somehow thought that in running away from me for all of those years, that you somehow had severed…

Date June 11th 2018 / Time Unknown / Status Not Recording Location The Carnage Arena – Baltimore, Maryland Beating Petrangelo felt pretty damn good. I can’t lie. Felt better than good, actually. There’s nothing I love more than heading up the ramp and into the backstage area feeling… no, knowing that I proved that son of a Bitch wrong. I’m petty like that, what can…

Opening my eyes, I see them. Maggie, Joe, Kyra… Gabriel, Eden, Jet… But their backs, they’re turned to me. I try to move towards them, but quickly I realize that I’m unable to move. Panic fills my body. I try to scream out, desperate to get their attention. “Help me!” I yell, but they act as if they hadn’t heard a thing. I pull hard…

Date June 6th 2018 / Time 10:13PM / Status Not Recording Location Stalking Horse Bar – Baltimore, Maryland (Continued from Amber Ryans CD – ‘The Clash’) “Fuck me…” I mutter to myself as I turn my body away from Amber, listening to her storm out of the bar – letting the door slam behind her on her way out. My shoes are drenched in whiskey….

We’re broken people now We’re burning out So cold and bleeding now now now Gonna let you down We’re broken people now We’re broken people now   “I’ve single handedly, taken out your entire support system.” My eyes waiver for a moment, looking just behind him at Maggie… Lifeless, and bound to that chair. I struggle against the men holding me back, the tears streaming…

Not to be a dick, and I know most of you are going to take this the wrong way.. But last year when I created the Monarchy of Anarchy tournament.. A tournament built around what Carnage Wrestling is best known for… That tough, bare knuckles, bloody… Ultraviolent wrestling… I wished that I could have been a part of it. Ultraviolence is my thing, after all….

Play ▷ Date May 16th 2018 / Time 11:01AM / Status Not Recording Location The Wylde Residence – New York City, New York “All of it.” “All of it?” I nod my head, feeling my patience thinning as if it were a tightly bound rope weighed down by a car, cut ever so slightly – unraveling under the weight. Eventually it’s going to snap. “Did…

Date May 3rd 2018 / Time 6:02PM / Status Not Recording Location The ‘War’ Residence – Baltimore, Maryland Joey and I have been spending a lot of time together lately. I’ve enjoyed it. I’ve helped him pick a dog, he’s taken me to the beach, we’ve worked out together… It’s been nice. It’s been great to take a break from the perils of spearheading a divorce, moving my…

Play ▷ Date May 8th 2018 / Time 12:03AM / Status Not Recording Location Presence Saint Joseph Hospital – Chicago, Illinois I hate these places. Then again, doesn’t everyone? There’s always a feeling of dread when you walk into these places. A feeling of overwhelming fear and sadness.. And this time is no different. In my hand is my phone. I’ve tried calling him eight…