Date March 5th 2020 / Time11:58AM / Status Not Recording Location Lovest Bridal Boutique – Las Vegas, Nevada “Mommy! I go!?” I pull the sunglasses off of my eyes as we step into the bridal shop, the bright lights hitting my eyes and immediately making me wish I’d of cancelled this appointment today. Why in the hell I scheduled an appointment to pick out dresses…

Date February 17th 2020 / Time11:24PM / Status Not Recording Location Johns Hopkins Bayview Medical Center – Baltimore, Maryland I hope she’s alright. -DOCTOR SMITH TO THE ER, CODE BLUE- My eyes widen as I shift my position in the chair.  Code Blue isn’t good.. But there are a lot of people back there.. That doesn’t necessarily mean that call is for Lucy… Right? I…

Someone falls to pieces Sleeping all alone Someone kills the pain Spinning in the silence She finally drifts away Someone gets excited In a chapel yard And catches a bouquet Another lays a dozen White roses on a grave And to be yourself is all that you can do To be yourself is all that you can do Someone finds salvation in everyone Another only…

Date December 15th 2019 / TimeUnknown / Status Not Recording Location Ultimate Carnage 5 – The United Center – Chicago Illinois Everything about tonight felt wrong. As I sit back here – Post elimination, nursing a headache and a few mangled knuckles; watching the rest of the match… Something still feels off. Tonight shouldn’t have ever happened. None of us should’ve ever been put into…

Date December 2nd 2019 / Time Unknown / Status Not Recording Location Chaos 84 at the Carnage Arena – Baltimore, Maryland “Miss Wylde, I think you should go to the hospital for further examination, I–” “Just–” I put my hand up and he stops talking while I lean against the wall, my legs feeling like Jello until finally I give up trying to stand and…

“You don’t run from the people who need you. You fight for them. You fight beside them. No matter the cost. No matter the risk.”  ― Rick Yancey, The Last Star ― November 19th 2019 I didn’t know what I wanted to do when I left for Baltimore. I said I was gonna figure it out but the truth is I didn’t figure shit out until…

November 6th 2019 I don’t know how I can be tired after being drugged up for 12 days but I am. I don’t even know why I’m writing in this damn thing, not that I don’t appreciate the gifts and the thought behind them… I do, it’s just there’s a hell of a lot going on in my mind right now and I don’t really…

I know I fucked up. … … Rewind back a month ago. Things in my life were getting to be about as bleak as they possibly could have been. But then, for me, something unexpected happened. Forgive me if I’m being vague, but there is a point to it all. The Championship Wrestling Federation. I want to talk about forgiveness… I want to talk about,…

Date March 3rd 1999 / Time12:49AM / Status Not Recording Location The Johnson Residence – Baltimore, Maryland BAM!!!! I open my eyes and sit up in the bed, looking around the room – trying to figure out what that noise was. I thought it was him coming back in here… But one look at my bedroom door immediately tells me that’s not true. It sounded…

I’m sorry Two words I always think After you’ve gone When I realize I was acting all wrong   Date October 18th 2019 / Time 9:57PM / Status RECORDING Location The Lee/Wylde Residence – New York City, New York I’m exhausted. I’m exhausted and I’m regretting my decision to leave UGWC and join Carnage more and more with every second. It’s not the competition. It’s…