Date July 30th 2018 / Time 1:21AM / Status Not Recording Location Grandbar – Chicago, Illinois No matter how hard I try, I just can’t stop thinking about earlier.. How she came down to ringside when I didn’t want here there. How she interrupted my match with Alan. How she distracted me… how she cost me that match. I can’t believe she’d do something like…

I can almost see it | That dream I’m dreaming but There’s a voice inside my head saying | You’ll never reach it You know, I’ve been thinking. A couple of years ago, I had my doubts about myself in this business.. As a wrestler, a performer, a promoter and most importantly… a fighter. Everyone has them. It’s part of the human condition, I guess…..

Date July 24th 2018 / Time 11:16AM / Status Not Recording Location Presence Saint Joseph Hospital – Chicago, Illinois After last night, I don’t even want to be here right now. “Excuse me, Ma’am?” I glance up at the nurse, standing in the doorway of the waiting room. She motions through the door, where they just took Maggie for her MRI. “Would you like to…

Date July 9th 2018 / Time Unknown / Status Not Recording Location Chaos 58 at the Carnage Arena – Baltimore, Maryland “Jack!” Between the crowds cheering and the blank look in his eyes, I’m not sure if Jacks hearing anything right now. He’s standing in the middle of the ring, holding James’ head between his legs, ready to hit him with yet another Last Blast….

Date July 8th 2018 / Time Unknown / Status Not Recording Location UGWC Wrestlestock Day Four – New Orleans, Louisiana One!!   Two!!   Three!! “Here is your winner, and STILL the World Heavyweight Champion…LUUCCCYYYYYY WYYYLLLLLDDDDEEEEEEE!!!!” I close my eyes and drop Kem’s leg, immediately rolling over onto my knees. For a moment, the pain in my arms doesn’t bother me, the slight throbbing in…

Keep holding on When my brains tickin’ like a bomb Guess the black thoughts have come again to get me Sweet bitter words Unlike nothing I have heard Sing along Mockingbird You don’t affect me My dear Lucille. I still find it to be funny how you somehow thought that in running away from me for all of those years, that you somehow had severed…

Date June 11th 2018 / Time Unknown / Status Not Recording Location The Carnage Arena – Baltimore, Maryland Beating Petrangelo felt pretty damn good. I can’t lie. Felt better than good, actually. There’s nothing I love more than heading up the ramp and into the backstage area feeling… no, knowing that I proved that son of a Bitch wrong. I’m petty like that, what can…

Opening my eyes, I see them. Maggie, Joe, Kyra… Gabriel, Eden, Jet… But their backs, they’re turned to me. I try to move towards them, but quickly I realize that I’m unable to move. Panic fills my body. I try to scream out, desperate to get their attention. “Help me!” I yell, but they act as if they hadn’t heard a thing. I pull hard…

Date June 6th 2018 / Time 10:13PM / Status Not Recording Location Stalking Horse Bar – Baltimore, Maryland (Continued from Amber Ryans CD – ‘The Clash’) “Fuck me…” I mutter to myself as I turn my body away from Amber, listening to her storm out of the bar – letting the door slam behind her on her way out. My shoes are drenched in whiskey….

We’re broken people now We’re burning out So cold and bleeding now now now Gonna let you down We’re broken people now We’re broken people now   “I’ve single handedly, taken out your entire support system.” My eyes waiver for a moment, looking just behind him at Maggie… Lifeless, and bound to that chair. I struggle against the men holding me back, the tears streaming…