November 6th 2019 I don’t know how I can be tired after being drugged up for 12 days but I am. I don’t even know why I’m writing in this damn thing, not that I don’t appreciate the gifts and the thought behind them… I do, it’s just there’s a hell of a lot going on in my mind right now and I don’t really…

I’m sorry Two words I always think After you’ve gone When I realize I was acting all wrong   Date October 18th 2019 / Time 9:57PM / Status RECORDING Location The Lee/Wylde Residence – New York City, New York I’m exhausted. I’m exhausted and I’m regretting my decision to leave UGWC and join Carnage more and more with every second. It’s not the competition. It’s…

Date S̶̹͎͂ē̷̱̤̯͜p̵̯̥̞͐̆͊̐͑t̸̙̳͋e̴̬̼͓͓̣̗͊ḿ̵̢̨̼̭̘̇͋̈́͝b̵̫̫̆̌̑e̴͓̊̀r̴̛̩̭̈́̈́̋͝ ̵̛̤̭̟͚̠͋̀͜2̴͍͖̈̉ͅ0̸͍̹͚͒̎͝ͅt̵̲͎̞̯̰͋̓̎̈́ĥ̵͚,̸̗̮̣͇̭̒ ̷̨͕͚̠͚́̿̾͐̋2̴̹͇̦̞̗̠̀̽͑̀̂̉0̶̨̪͓͗̈́̓̆̍1̶̹͔̒̓́̃͊͘9̶̛̻̗͍̀ / Time 7̴̣̣̓̈́̓̐̎̾:̷͙̜̙͆̍͆2̸̟̮̿5̴̜̺̈́͘̚P̷̧͍̦͈͒M̷̰̤̯̟̎͆̏̊͠ͅ / Status N̵̫̑̾̐̑͘̚o̶̠̱̅̑̔͋t̴̛̼͖̺̂͐̇̕ ̴̨͍̗̗̓͊̂̚R̸̨͖̦̈́͑͂̆e̵͓̦͔̹͋c̴̨̢̢̖͌̈́̆͂̽ͅo̶̮̺͔̖̠̅r̸̢͕͛̈̚͝d̸̘̗̲̊̾̏̕͝î̸̲̼͎̭̈̀́̄ͅn̷͇̻̺͉̞̿̈́g̸̻̺̯̣͕͌ Location T̵̰̕͝h̴̲͉̋̄͝ȩ̶͙̰͚̼́̽͜ ̷̟̰̪̱̬̫͗̉͌̾̄͘R̵̡͉̋̍͒͘ô̸͓͍̩o̶̢̩̤̩̱̓̈́̊̈́f̶̭̳͎͑̑̽̒͂̓͜t̶̫͂̉ǫ̷͉̻͎̭͒͛̊͛̕p̶̨͍̗͇͇̙̐͝ ̸̭͈̟̖̳̞̌͝a̷̢̯̝͔͆̈́̅͗͋̃t̸̛̹̣̖̎̾̒̎͜ ̷̹͎̠͚̀̎̾̿͑̇L̴̝͙̏̎̈̐o̷͖̰̦͙͑͋̃̌̕ṋ̸̼̟̪̬̗̽̃̿d̵̬̈́͋̌̚͝ô̴̻̰̖̜͙͑n̵̖̏̃̆̉̂̕h̸̢̃ͅȯ̴̮̹̲̔̊̉́ṷ̵̺͇̺̿͊̈́̓̒͝s̴̢̺̣̟͇̞̈́̀͗͌́͑e̴͙̎̇̽ ̴̡͕̔̅̀̕Ḩ̵̰̻̞̱̽̔͛̎͘ȯ̸̖̖̣͓̰̩̓t̷̤̤̱͠ë̵͖͖̺̙́l̷̹̩̿̃̾̈̀ ̴̬̜̯͌̅́̓͌̕-̶̨̫͔̫͍̐̂̐̈̓̀ ̷̹̩̜̘̦͒͝Ç̵̖̔̂̃͊͑̌h̷̗͉̰̩̘̿i̵̥̳̥̠̟̮͐̓̒c̷̢̢̹̲͇͚̚a̸̢̢̜̳͇̓̃͑̐ģ̷̧̱̭̣̓̒͂͊͝o̶̦̮̗̝̱̓̍,̴̥̼̘̑̌́̅̕͜͜ ̶̡̢̹̺̟͒̾̇Ì̵̤͓̳̥̰͚͝͝͝l̸̘̱̗̄͐̌́́l̸̨̛̯̋͌̓̊̎ī̷̬̰̮̎͗͠n̵͓̬͂͋̏̈́̀ó̶͙̮̩̫͈î̷̧͈̝͈̬͑̾̿͗̚ś̵̝͋̕ My hearts racing. I can hear my it pounding in my ears as I make my way out onto the rooftop patio for this party – my heels almost clicking in time with every heartbeat, making me realize how fast I’m walking. Slow down. Just…

Date July 1st 2019 / Time 11:58PM / Status Not Recording Location Hyatt Place Hotel – Baltimore, Maryland “Ugh….” The water’s hot. The soap is… Well soapy. But that feeling of being covered in filth from whatever in the hell was in that dumpster.. Well that just won’t go the hell away – no matter how long I stand in this shower, lathering and rinsing…

Date July 17th 2019 / Time 11:49am / Status Not Recording Location The Lee/Wylde Residence – New York City, New York I’m concerned. Just a little concerned. Not ‘drag my boyfriend to the nuthouse’ concerned. Just a little bit. I mean, that’s normal, right? Especially after watching him drop someone (albeit someone who’s a bit of a prick) on the guardrail back first and then…

Funny how things change, huh? Last year I was preparing to defend the UGWC World Heavyweight Championship against Kem Dynamo. Last year, I never thought I’d be anywhere else but UGWC. But here we are. As a certain idiot champ of yours is so fond of saying, I’m not here anymore. But, looking around and seeing some of you who ‘aren’t quitters’… I gotta say,…

It’s no real secret that Robby Zodiac and I have some history together. I mean, to some of you I guess… If you’re living under a rock and you don’t pay attention to what goes on in promotions that aren’t your own. Something I see a great deal of around here in Carnage. It’s like a virus. A virus of ignorance where people honestly believe…

(OOC – In order to understand everything that’s going on, you might wanna read JC’s RP ‘Eyeless’ before mine to get the full effect.) I’m tired. Actually, I think it’s more than that. I’m weary, I’m worried.. But most of all I’m just plain exhausted. I’m Lucy, by the way. Sorry I never got the chance to stop by before now and say hello, and,…

It’s been said that you only fall in love with a total of three people in your lifetime. Each one for a specific reason. I used to think it was a load of horseshit, myself. But now, being older, hopefully wiser… I’m seeing that statement being true. At least for my own life. How it relates to you, if at all isn’t for me to…

As a certain person always used to say… Changes Come. This here?  Well this is just the next change that’s.. Well, coming in my life. Carnage Wrestling. I’m sure the majority of you already know who I am before I even get the chance to say anything, but for those of you who live under a rock.. I’m Lucy. Might have seen my name a…